Last week In office there were strong debates to discuss who was the actual culprit for the partition of the UNITED India. Mr. chaudhary personally believes that the Congress was equally responsible as the Muslim league. As debate went on the whole office was gathered and started showing their care about the country.

I was really surprised that after 62 years of independence all of a sudden everyone is out to find the culprit for Partition .'What mileage are we going to achieve with this ? Can anyone find out who was responsible for partition ? What punishment will be most suitable for the responsible ?" I was thinking without interrupting them. It was the rarest moment when every on was seriously involve by giving up their office work. One was blaming congress, another to RSS but debate became warmer when some started blaming Gandhi ji. My mind was connected to some other threads also.It is also true that we should never forget the contribution of all the people who contributed in getting the independence .But was everyone sleeping for so many years or all the issues pertaining to the present & future have been resolved.Whatever has happened in the past is past and cannot change it . We can only live with it.Being a democratic country everyone is free to express one’s view .But how can some one blame our father of nation so easily.This issue has been raised after Mr. Singh has written a book, With due respect to the author was he not aware of the fact in the last 60 years . May be he want to derive some political mileage or wants to sell his book by taking up such a sensitive issue for which the people of the country will not gain anything except delaying my lunch. That day we finished the lunch after 3 pm. I left the never ending debate for site visit. Are all issued addressed & have we reached to some conclusion ?In my view it will be wise to debate on issues pertaining to our present and future rather than go in for fault finding exercise .

गडे मुर्दे उखाड़ने से क्या फायदा,

जिन्दों को मुर्दा होने से बचाओ तो कोई बात बने !

ना कुरेदो उन् जख्मो को जिनका कोई इलाज नही,

तमाशाई (नेता लोग) मुट्ठी मैं नमक लिए घूमते रहे है !!

Thinking Of You ...

Dear xyz

I donot know what you feel about me. And I never think any bad about you. Believe me I never want to hurt your feeling, it is true since when I saw you for first time, It was the first time in my life that a girl impressed me so bad or good. And I do not know I started liking you or it was something else.

Since I never felt about any girl before. So whenever I asked any thing about you people started guessing that some thing was going on inside me about you. My whole life is an open secret, my family, my friends, every one knows each and every thing about me. So every one got my feelings about you (but it was upto my group ). Remember when I phoned you and asked to you about some persons making you fake calls. Meanwhile I was in shree ram hostel ,the night when sobhit lost his lap top. There I had a long argument with those guys who used to make you call. After that I came into College news. Some one made a call to my home and tell some thing absurd to my brother(Luckily it was not my father at that time) about you and me.

After that incident I was ignoring such things and thats why I deleted all my scraps written to you. I told that incidence only to sumit and sumitra. After that I stopped making you calls. When you selected for JOB, I wanted to give you congratulations but I could not make it. Sobhit and Sumit both gave you the congratulates from my room and I was there.

I never expected something from you because it was all my feelings or fault. I made numbers of friends and all of them has their faith in me. But I think you have some wrong impression of me. The day before the farewell function you send friendship request to kausik and sobhit, but not to me. They both told me about this. It was really embarrassment to me. I thought I should send it to you. But you did not accept it. I donot know why you were so rude to me.

I'm just here thinking of you, like I always do. I hope you're as happy as me; I just want you to know how much I troubled you. I always wish your well.

Please just tell me if I have done any wrong to you.

You still have the same place in my heart as my best friends do..... and If you have any misunderstanding about me please make it clear, if I hurt your feelings then forgive me for that. I never want to hurt any one in my life. So please reply this as soon as possible, I just want to have such a good relation so that we can talk to each other and I will not feel any shame talking to you and nothing else..

I usually get disturbed if I think some one has troubled by my doings.

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........................................................................................................... Waiting for your reply

ABC

"LIFE Needs Some Changes-mission Impossible"
Last night Pravin dada asked the question same again, “Anuj what are you doing in a Distribution Center? There is nothing to do there. Come back to store operation”. I know that he is right but still I have a great benefit over him. My office timing is fix and there is not so much work to do. I can use my time for study and improving my skills. But this is true that I am killing my time here. Yeap! Now I start thinking about my doings these days. I started questioning to myself.
I wanted to say,” Dada, I had worked hard in my starting days, But what I got you know well, don’t you? You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs.”
I remember, someone’s words “If you do more work than other you will get more works”.
I know that principles such as honesty and integrity are not the outdated ideals of a bygone era. I learned that I don’t know everything, it’s not my job to save the world and that I can’t teach a pig to sing. But now from last three days I am helping supply chain people. I share there work load and do the mapping and best fit of materials. Definetly this will bring me more near to the supply chain people. I also started taking more interest in pending works of IT. I have completed many works which was given to my colleagues.

I don't expect any good response from my department and the enthusiasm is much below than that of beginning days. I am in the early stages of my career, given plenty of guidance and support. I was closely monitored, coached and mentored. But as I moved up the ladder, the sources of honest and useful feedback became fewer, and after a certain point, I became pretty much on my own. Now, my boss is no longer giving much consideration to our day-to-day actions. By the time any mistakes come to light, it’s probably too late to fix them – or my boss’s perceptions of me.
No matter how talented & successful you are, you will make mistakes. You will develop bad habits. The world will change cunningly, without even noticing you & your behaviors. It’s hard to see it when you’re in the midst of it; changes in the environment, competitors, or even personal circumstances can quietly guide you off your game.
Pravin dada and sachin are now transferred to Roll Out team that means now they have to run over one place to other daily. I am still doing office duty and getting more weight day by day.
I know that our body really is our temple. I began to care for it and treat it with respect. I eat a balanced diet, during more water, and take more time to exercise. I learnt that "being tired fuels doubt, fear, and uncertainty and so we take more time to rest. And, just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels our soul. So we should take more time to laugh and to play."
So not only the professional my personal life both need some change and the process of improving them has began.

"Am I already three parts dead ?"
June has 3 important days 22,23 and 25, birthdays of Sachin, Saurabh and Sanchita respectively. Sachin had celebrated his bday at home and sanchita has the same plan. I called saurabh today at sharp 12:30 after midnight to wish him. I did not make him call at 12:00 because he was supposed to be busy in birthday bumps ceremony. And I found him in desired condition. At that time he was pouring his ass.
I called sachin in the evening today. I came to know that he gave a grand birthday treat to our juniors. He specially talked to them about my crush, and you don't believe that every one knows about the hole (you can add w before hole)story. I was gone in past after the talk. Various thoughts about T***t were vacillated continually in my mind. Is I'm in love or is it only attraction ? The mind and the heart were divided into two.
The heart says lets do something so that she would get to know about my feelings. Kartikay status on gtalk was another comment on my condition, "To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead", " so am I". I was falling in love again.
Now second part the mind comes into play. Now when I think logically my mind goes blank. It can not get the thread of the heart any more. first point is," when every one knows about my affair and she doesn't know anything, how so?" Another thing is that she had not given a single reply on my Emails. If she has the same feeling as mine then she did not finish the contacts with me. Now mind haughtiness is at the extreme. The Heart is now getting the thread going on in the mind. My girl might be getting famous/notorious due to me. Her name was added with me and that is why she has broken all the connection with me.
The time came in my life when I finally got it...when, in the midst of all my fears and insanity, I stopped dead in my tracks and somewhere the voice inside my head cried out...ENOUGH!
Enough hue and crying and blaming and struggling to hold on.......

I realized it, It is time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change, or for happiness, safety and security to magically appears over the next horizon. I realized that in the real world there are not always fairy tale endings.

I awaken to the fact that I'm not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and thats OK. They are entitled to their own views and opinions.

Finally, with courage in my heart, I'm taking a stand, taking a deep breath, and beginning to design the life I want to live as best I can.

And, a never-ending love story begins... I fall in love with myself.

"CRUSH-short-lived infatuation"

Hello friends, I'm back with my ideas and concepts. Last Friday I got a scrap from One of my senior as..

"	Nitish Kumar: I have started a new topic in my JK community and the name of the topic is Tell me about your crush in JK days"

I went through the community and visited the forum. I was not much interested in the topic, that's why I wrote nothing special. But when I got the responses of that the writer inside me awakened.

First I gave too short an answer, letting the conversation slip into interrogation mode. Others responses are firmly in control of how the dialogue unfolds. My friends are guessing things that were better left unsaid in my reply.

Most teenagers begin their romantic lives with a series of crushes. Crush is the word related to strong emotions and relationships. People have crushes on their classmates, senior, juniors and some time on their teacher and some one very old in age.

The Owner (Nitish sir) wanted to know something. I respect that and gave them an answer, with just enough supporting information. Its my pleasure to know that my friends are very much interested in my crush. And it is an inspiration for me to start writing blogs again.

A crush involves admiring someone from a safe distance. You feel a hugely powerful emotion, stronger than anything you've felt before. You obsess over this person. You would die for them. You think about them constantly. You are thrilled when you are near them and miserable when you are away from them.

We ALL had crushes over the years and they're something you look back on with great fondness. I'm now learning how to deal with strong feelings of attraction.
As we learn more about life and find some one of same age who is also interested in us And at that point that our interests change from a crush to a real, meaningful relationship.

" THE FIRST FREE DAY SUNDAY"

Can you imagine the first holiday after a long time of work? it is right that we should write some thing and share about our life and inform our friends, so that we can be in touch with each other. You are now going to be man of world and this is good and here I'm enjoying my new job. It was really hard to decide about join the job coz i did not want to leave my CDAC course in between, but I just want to make my parents tension free as soon as possible so I joined Reliance . One more thing about my job is that all my boss and employees are newly joined so we all are at the same stage only designations are different and It may be beneficial to join any company when it going to start.
Today is my first sunday and I have a long list of things to be done today, It is only one week over after joining but it seems that today I got freedom form office after a age. so this is about what is going here.
so now time to say bye
take care.......

Passing the time
Just two more days, and after that I will say bye to all my friends of ncst and bangalore. Time is crawling very slowly now, There is no neccessity of study,no programming, no late night labs. Any non Ncstian may think it as the time of joy.But in real it is boring in side the CDAC. Every one is busy in programming or project and I am just passing my time on gmail.